What It Means to Give Up, Not Give In

She sits in the window

Picturesque,

Sipping her tea,

Staring out

At the partners, managers, and C.E.O.s

Hustling past.

(For is there any other way
To describe the motion
Of people who no longer see life as a gift?
That is why it's called The Present)

Yesterday was termination,

Today is spent in isolation,

And tomorrow?

Tomorrow,

Is determination.

She sells her soul

Each night

To ABC, CBS, and USA.

But as she sits in said cafe,

Sipping life and tears away,

She realizes what it means to give in -

To society, mainstream media, and the covers of magazines.

On the corner of 1st and Carlton Street,

She passes grace

Hidden by graffiti of tortured teens.

She takes three more steps

And turns around

To hear the sound of angels' cry,

A cry for Christ to come and die.

The planner reads 'Wednesday'

As she retracts her steps,

Peers in the window of an old warehouse,

Only to see another chance at life.

Click

Click Click
(Hi...
I'm...)

"Lonely?"
"Broken?"
"Broke?"
"Afraid?"

She nods four times
And takes her seat.

The gold embossed words
Strike her

From the cover of a worn, leather book.

She stares into their eyes,

Their past's.

And finally, she is ready to give up -

And never again give in.

-Picturesque

The inspiration for this came to me today when I found myself ready to give in to life's troubles. And right when I wanted to cry and scream and yell at the world, I looked up at the sky. There, right above the road in front of me was this gorceous cloud. A whispy one, not the kind that make the best picture. But it was in the shape of a horse running, across the plains. But what took my breath away was the rainbow on it's mane. And when I checked the sky, I couldn't find a rainbow in any other place. Such perfect things aren't meant to be captured on camera. There is freedom in giving up - whether it is to nature, to God, to your dreams. Just remember, the only feeling you ever get from giving in is regret and resentment. "I started with the firm conviction that when I came to the end, I wanted to be regretting the things I had done, not the things I hadn't." - Michael Caine

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Playlist: Gotta be Somebody - Nickelback, 1985 - Bowling for Soup, No Reins - Rascal Flatts, If You Could Only See - Tonic, To Know Your Name - Hillsong United, Lead Me to The Cross - Hillsong United, The RiddleI - Five for Fighting, Moments - Emerson Drive